Breathless
“I will not talk to her from now on" I resolved perhaps 4th
time in Six months .Real question was how long this resolution would I hold it true . You need to
keep your self respect aside when you are in Love ,my friend had advised me not
long ago. I, myself in past, made similar conclusion ,No body owes you respect, it is always earned . You had made decision that she is wonderful person to know . That
however does not make her oblige your advances .That’s how things are brought
in supermarket , relationship can’t fall in that category . It has to be two way decision . Imagine you
are not allowed to enter a Shop because you didn’t buy anything last time .
Same way if you don’t talk to her , your chance of 0.00001% will reduced to none.
What more I would do? I said in my defense when you are
interested in busiest girl in office. She has time for everything except me. I argued.
But did I have option I was at every
least hopelessly in love with her . Love is state of mind . Infatuation and
crush would be more appropriate word ,I corrected.
Why do you even like her ? She only has blank expressions on
her face.My friends would enquire . Blank Girl that’s what she called her once .
You people would never get it .I protested There is something in her which say she is the one
. I can't pin point any particular reason .She was not most beautiful or
friendly not sweet and simple But then
does looks mater . I get positive vibes. She is most beautiful girl I can look at for
hours without a blink .You are mad. was my friends conclusion. I accepted that with smile .
Why would you be so insane for girl who don’t even talk to you?.
I too wondered that many times. There would be many days I would call her but wouldn’t
get any call back .She doesn’t like me . I concluded . But then it doesn’t mater
I have nothing to loose .She is not mine yet .What if she never cared about it. But will does not talking
to her solve that problem .I didn’t know .
Then she met me co incidentally in lift ,She smiled and we
had small chat. I was happiest person at that very moment .Smile I saw melted my heart like no other.Now I know why i
like her very much …her smile make me breathless like on one else does ……