Sunday, February 15, 2015

Valentine , Perfect , Destination


“I m really busy,Can I call you back “was excuse he was used to hear .Anirudh had called Tejal like always .Most of the time she didn’t pick up his phone. When she picked,the conversation didn't last more than five minutes as she was too busy . But his  regret was that .She never called him out of her own . We all were busy but Anirudh made the point to call her whenever he felt like .She never did .She didn't want to speak to him it was quite evident .But she denied this whenever Anirudh brought it up. Action spoke louder than words. She didn’t speak much to him. she had the time for everyone but him .It hurt Anirudh at some level .It felt like rejection .It felt like someone passing the judgement without knowing the fact .But its was not her fault after all .

Tejal and Anirudh met as part of project. Though it was brief encounter Anirudh really liked her .She was not what traditionally be called stunning .She wont attract you attention if she is passing by .She was no head tuner. But beauty lies in eyes of beholder. Where others overlooked her ,Anirudh fell in for among other things her innocent smile. Never knew why you call it love at first sight. When they first met Anirudh knew she was special . You need not be the most beautiful girl to make someone fall in love She was a smart and confident. She had varied interest, evident by limited discussion Anirudh had with her. She was outgoing but didn’t open up to Anirudh.

Anirudh on other end was turning paranoid about love till he met tejal .He had everything going for him on professional front .He had built his career through hard work .Struggled all his life to make to Good Life where even his friend envy. Anirudh had many friends who loved him. You are perfect husband, quipped many . But he was unlucky in term for companion . His best friend wondered why he was single .He was everything a girl would like .He was  simple , down to earth but his shyness overawed his friendliness .

Anirudh was getting restless Tejal had stoned walled his advances which was quite evident .But he was day by day kept thinking of her more and more .this first thoughts of the day and last one were about her ,He had decided not to talk to her many times . But then, seeing her innocent smile made him go weak on his knees. He had kept his ego aside only for tejal .In the past no one got away with that kind of behaviour .Any non friendly behaviour and he would have shut the person out of life forever .But even he was surprised that even after soo many “Not Interested “ signs ,he was still calling her trying to make the conversation .Trying to know her more .trying to tell her how much he cared for her.

It was mid winter . Anirudh was browsing through market for routine shopping .When Anirudh noticed shops laced with Everything Red .There were teddy bears ,heart cut outs announcing It Valentines Day . He genuinely felt the vacuum in his life . He wanted buy those gifts for someone .

He was waiting for train to take him home. But his thoughts were still stuck on Tejal. There were hundred of girls passing through but he just wished that object of his affection walked through .When you pray with all the might even  angels grant you your wish .At that precise moment ,He saw Tejal Walking towards him .He didn’t have words .He was awestruck .The train was approaching .Tejal passed through him  not noticing the eager eyes .Like in life she was failing in accepting the love someone had for her . Anirudh didn’t have any regret ,This was just perfect for him. Just sight of your beloved is blessing when you really love someone .It was more than he would ask for on valentines day .It was just what he wished for ,he was content . Anirudh and Tejal boarded the same train home .Anirudh was feeling the warmth .Just the feeling of travelling in same train was making him happy . He felt the connection , With train they were heading towards same direction it was taking them to their destination ,even though for different reason, their path have crossed .




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Thursday, February 12, 2015



LIFE HAS BEEN MY INSPIRATIONS FOR MY BLOG .HOPE LIFE CONTINUES TO INSPIRE ME 

Saturday, February 7, 2015

My First Love




Love is overrated .We believe in that statement & even swear by it if we are not in love at that moment .It is either before we fall in love or after ,we can never make that statement when we are in love .There is exception to it , it’s when we anticipate to fall in love.

Aayush, too felt that way .Ever since his first crush ended in a bizarre way .In School days ,He liked the girl in his class. Sunaina was beautiful ,much like fairy princess ,Aayush had imagined .There was grace in her walk ,there was melody in her talk. She was perfect .He thought about her day and night . Making her happy was only the thing  he thought .He knew everything her favorite color ,her favorite actors from her food habits to her hobbies .He cared for her  too much . But he had only problem .He did not tell her so. He thought she would sense his love .If you love someone with all your heart, words should not mater he believed .But the world does’nt  realise it. No mater how much you love her in your heart .You have to show it or say it, otherwise it doesn’t ring a bell .Universe does not conspire unless you make an effort. Aayush crush came tumbling down when he realized this fact .He moved on but Love was overrated for him thereon .But Love was a addiction much like drugs or nicotine ,psychologically speaking .When you try to come out of it, you still carve for if .You resist the temptation but carving remains until you get it from somewhere.

For Sapna Love didn’t exist .Who on earth would love me she often thought .Her mirror often refuse to acknowledge her presence. She was smart and intelligent .But those criteria didn’t win her any fans .She loved travelling .She had joined a trek group in college .Which led her to visit place & explore the nature that’s what fascinated her .She shared those fascinations through her travel blog. Her writing skill needed much hounding .But that is secondary ,more important was her travel experience .Love was only for pretty people, was her belief .Even slim, beautiful ,homely were the criteria for arranged marriage and Fairness creams and treatment was fascination , she hardly had a chance. Guys  spoke to her only because they wanted  an intro for her beautiful friend. They felt more confident in approaching her than the gorgeous damsel .But then she too started seeing through it .She had become paranoid towards love .


Madam Chhuta nahi hai !! , taxi driver was repeating the epic line .Sapna had heard n number of times .Mumbaikars has been bestowed upon epic curse of lack of change .Rakhlo chutta ,sapna said finally .She was already running late for writing worshop.It was not her forte but her friend had insisted it will help her in Travel  blog writing . Is these seat empty ? Sapna asked to geek smart looking guy .Aayush totally engrossed in his thoughts till that time said yes giving her half look. She was used to it . However she adjusted her chair to make a seat .Bang !! in process jammed Aayush’s fingers. Oh I am really sorry ,said Sapna..Aayush gave her’ what the hell’ look. How will I take my notes now ? hissed Aayush . Sapna made a sad face .She was planning to does off if she found a session uninteresting .She decided to help him .


She took notes in her note in case aayush missed .Who was nevertheless taking down as much as he could. Is your hand ok ?asked sapna . Ya its fine now ,Aayush replied .Did you manage to take notes completely .If not I have taken down notes you can keep this in case you need for referencing . Aayush had not able to complete the notes .he was rather disheartened .However  he was touched by Sapna’s kind behavior .He took her notes . Hey but how will I return this book ? Aayush wondered .Ok take my number call me once you have copied it .

Aayush called sapna in couple of week’s time .but her phone went unanswered .Sapna had been travelling with her trek group. After a month or so Aayush called again . this time sapna answered .She had completely forgotten about a guy whose finger she almost broke. They decided to meet at mall to exchange the notebook .

Meeting was more than pleasant surprise for both of them .Their conversation started why they were at Writing workshop. Sapna told Aayush about her blog & Aayush shared his book hoping sphere were he read 5 books a month .He reviewed each one of them in his own blog . He hoped to write a book himself . They discussed each other hobbies.,aspirations .This was a start of friendship. It was friendship by coincidence .

They started discussing more about each other life through chat & calls. Aayush would narrate about his latest books .Sapna would detailed version of her travels .Aayush even accompanied her to few trips along with group .Day in day out they were coming closer .

Aayush was not smiiten by sapna She was not typical beautiful girl Her fashion sense was restricted to matching her heel with top .Hairstyle was a pony .She hardly took care while stepping out .but there was more to a girl than her looks. Aayush was in two minds this was not his idea of life partner..He imagined  ,how their marriage pic look on Facebook .But then he thought does that even mater .

Sapna on other hand was first the realise the chemistry .But she ofcourse felt Aayush is too good looking and hence beyond her reach. She knew that looks was important factor  for any guy and she was sure losing in case there was a race.


We all wait for the most perfect person .Beautiful, intelligent, smart and what not . Then we meet him /her. She is not most beautiful but her smile touch your heart ,She may be not the intelligent but touch of her hand give you jitters. Aayush was feeling this for long time .He thought about her all the time .It was not about the looks its about the feeling. You don’t love a her because she is beautiful. But If you love a person ,she becomes most beautiful girl in whole world .Does what people think mater?It does not .

Aayush had made his decision but how will she react ? Does she even consider me eligible .? All their discussion where friendly not flirty .they have never considered each other a prospect .They never had inhabitations .Hence they never wear mask in front of each other .They didn’t pretend to be perfect in each other eyes .This has made them a free book .He had more than one occasion let his guard down let her knew his wild ambitions. She too let him in her most secretive world and shared her dreams .

Aayush decised to write a love letter .He wanted to pour his heart out to her.to let her know about his feelings . Aayush however remembered what happened with Sunaina .  Is this how it will end too? .Aayush‘s mind started wondering. You can never forget your first love ,he had heard . Who is My first Love?,.Aayush wondered .Aayush closed her eyes and one person took over his thoughts completely . It was Sapna. That’s all he thought about.
    


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Monday, February 2, 2015

Because I said so


Are you going to meet me today ? I asked Sucheta .”Quite Difficult ! ;-( ,She Said with sad face .Its been three day, I miss you yaar .I protested . Baby I know. I miss you too !,She cuckooed me .

Managing your love life and your hectic job at same time is stressfull. Especially if you have to manage your Sweetheart Job as well .Sometimes you are busy ,Sometimes She is and these sometimes hardly coexist if you are in different sectors. You have to be supportive when she is busy & have to be accommodating  even when  you are busy.

I met Sucheta on trek I took along with trek group .I was sitting in the bus waiting for my friends to join at  pick up points. She came an asked whether she can take the seat beside me . I responded with a blunt No ,as I was expecting my friends to join me .We didn’t spoke further on that trek .But I rued my missed chance later .I was observing her throughout the trek .She was bubbly enjoying almost childlike passion along with her friends .Week later when trek group circulated the pictures on Facebook .One of the comment attracted my attention . It was from Sucheta Sharma. I immediately took a chance and added her as friend.  As a precaution I added couple of her friends too.

First one to accept my request was Prachi  Kapoor .She was part of  Sucheta’s group in trek  ,  quite free spirited I presumed . I had couple of chats with her exchanging the Pleasantries. Her facebook profile was interesting, full of travel all over India. I just envied that collection. I fail to get single vacation in the year and  she had half dozen a year at least .We started discussing  more about travel .She became  my guide for restaurant in city. Just have to message her about the place & I had full review which included dishes to have .

Sucheta too accepted my invitation .We switched from FB Chat to WhatApp to phone calls to Movie meetings. During course of such weekend meets, When we took much liking to each other we never  realized .We never proposed to each other .Prachi, her friend helped me at every stage . Sucheta’s favorite restaurant , Food , actors ,place ,gifts to buy .Prachi was selflessly behind my successful relationship with Sucheta .I would sense that she wanted Sucheta to be happy .Sucheta knew prachi was behind some of the secret information I am getting .Her relation with Prachi grew more sisterly .

One day when Sucheta  was almost in tears as was upset with her mother ,I just looked into her eyes and hugged her tight. I felt like heaven & I said never be sad I am there for you always .She melted in my hands & she embraced me tighter. Somewhere in the background Ajay devgn track played Pyar to hona hi tha ……or was it my imagination.

Sucheta was sensitive, independent and ambitious .She was bit aggressive and  her ambitious nature never let her loose argument .Sometime in relationship you have to let go but she didn’t .She was sensitive too she would get hurt if I stretched the argument further .But her love & care greatly engulfed her bit selfish nature but it didn’t keep our arguments at bay.

You will not be talking to Prachi any more ,Sucheta announced. I was stumped . I didn’t knew  what exactly transpired between them .My queries to what exactly happened were stone walled .Now this resulted in another argument . What exactly happened I asked for nth time . Sucheta said that’s you didn’t need to know .Why should I stop talking to her then ? Because I said so ,She said .

I was in two minds although sucheta was our bonding factor , Prachi I had developed friendship of our own .But Sucheta had given me ultimatum and I can’t overlook that treat .She was right in a way .Sucheta knew prachi for  long time the day when she started working & were closest friend .What happened between them was not entirely my business .I just wanted them to sort their differences.But I was in dilemma . I was banned from talking to prachi with immediate effect . Should I break the curfew.
I decided to let the time pass .I expected with time issue will die down .It didn’t . But by buying time I indirectly took the sides .I did what sucheta wanted me to do . didn’t speak to prachi .I was being selfish .It was she who had helped me getting close to sucheta and today I had ditched her for making my love life less argumentive .

One day I found prachi online she was still on my friendlist to which sucheta had not objected  till now.I decided to rebel against my hitlerish Girlfriend.  “Hi , long time no see “I messaged her on chat ,unsure of response. I guess you too didn’t want to talk to me after what happened with sucheta ,she shot back .

I felt guilty of my behavior. I asked her, what happened exactly ? She realized sucheta had not told me the story .She knew sucheta more than me , so she wasn’t surprised . In spite of that prachi didn’t tell me anything .She told me it was just another argument which got out of hand & was hopeful that they will sort it out soon. So what are you gifting Sucheta on Valentine’s day ? It’s your first Valentine day with her.I had completely forgotten that . But Prachi was angel in disguise .She helped me pick the gift & suggested how to make the evening more romantic. Show her how much she means to you , so that she wont have second thoughts ever . I thanked her for the advise.

Few weeks later, Sucheta asked to accompany me to her  office colleagues engagement. At lavish party surrounded by her office colleague I was obviously bored . When Prachi entered  , one of the office guys commented .Look at prachi these day stays to herself .Another colleague responded , Ya specially after fight with Sucheta . Oh why did they fought ? Because sucheta was getting friendlier with Akshay in office .I heard that conversation unassumingly. Prachi wanted me and sucheta together always and that’s what was reason for fights .Even the valentine day plan was precisely for this reason .I felt strange emotions rather apathy .Sucheta has such Loyal and caring friend she had no idea .In spite of the fight she didn’t complain about sucheta to me .Rather tried to make my relationship with sucheta stronger. She had fight with sucheta for me.I had unknowingly undermined my bonding with her.


I immediately walked towards prachi and greeted her .Thanked her for lovely advice for  Valentine plan .I told her, how much Sucheta liked her idea .As I was having conversation I would sense Sucheta staring at me shockingly . When I joined her few minutes later, She said ,I told you not to talk to her. When I don’t say what you should do or not do I expect you to be tolerant of my choices with people .Hence forth please let me be my own Judge about people .Why? , She asked in disgust .Because I said so , was my reply  


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